After I graduated from high school and began planning for the future, my so very dreamed future wasn’t matching up with my reality. I have always pictured myself going to college and I could not imagine being happy or successful without having a college degree. Don’t get me wrong a college degree is very important, but sometimes things just don’t happen the way we plan. And that’s not the end of the world.
After graduating high school I did not go to college for a number of reasons. At first I was very upset, but I decided to trust God with my future. Then I started to babysit my little cousin. I absolutely love babies and this one in special; he was my cousin and I knew him since the day he was born. I was very happy when his mom asked me to be his babysitter, since being a mom is on top of my dream list. So this was I great opportunity to learn how to take care of a baby. He was 5 months old when I became his babysitter. I had to give him baths, feed him, put him to sleep, change his diapers and everything in between. Snuggles and kisses where part of the day too. I saw his first steps and his very first words. Those are special memories that I keep in my heart. He went to daycare when he was almost two and I started my first real job. It was not my dream job at all, but I’m very thankful for it.
I started this job t October 2019. This job is truly a blessing, it presented me with the sweetest co-workers a girl can ask for. I have grown so closer to my co-workers in the last few months that they became close friends of mine. They cheer me up and we wipe each others tears when life gets too overwhelming. I'm so grateful for them.
In the only few months working I saved enough money to buy my very first car. I have visited places I could only dreamed of. I have also grown so much in my faith. I’m proud to see how much I have accomplished, and to see that I’m becoming the woman God wants me to be. Sometimes things happens a little different than planned, but I learned not to hold onto things I have pictured for myself because God makes everything beautiful in its time. A year ago I could not imagined that I was able to accomplish so much. I was completely scared of being an adult and things were just out my control. I know I'm only 23 and there is a whole life ahead of me, but I'm less scared now because I know God is walking with me. Life can be overwhelming and this transition to adulthood is difficult but the plans He has for us are bigger than any plans we have for ourselves. We just have to trust Him.
During life we go through many seasons of waiting. We wait to find a spouse, to have a baby, to buy a house, graduate college and many more. Some seasons of waiting are longer than others and it is okay to feel lonely sometimes and to start questioning, why do we have to wait ?